Where do I, where do I go from here?  

{ } Wednesday, January 31, 2007

The Bottom Line
It's irrelevant how much people like your ideas. Just get them out there today!

In Detail
You have wonderful ideas deep inside of you, but something in you is worried that people might not understand them. What you have to realize today is that how your ideas are received is irrelevant. The only thing that matters is that you get your thoughts out into the world today -- people should know about what you are seeing when you close your eyes. Draw, paint, sketch or even just describe what it is that you want. Someone will appreciate it.

Alright, man. Today shall be the day someone doesn't deem my idea as stupid and appreciate it! ( I hope )



Crisis, you're not the only one with it. Words, you're not the only one who have to express them. Insults, you're the only one who can hurl it out without considering any circumstances.
Wait, do I even get to open my mouth and say anything?
That's for you to know.

It's 1.15 now, and I'm just done with my chemistry homework, so...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAUN,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY.



The thought about the future makes me cringe.

Thanks to Tan Jian Rui, Abygail, Nicholas and those who were concerned :)
I'm gonna prove you wrong. On your face.

@ 1:02 AM


{ } Monday, January 29, 2007

I have a 29th of January 2007 resolution.
From today onwards, I shall try to....

Come online only to
1. Go to hotmail & check / reply emails :)
2. Blog.
( IF YOU SEE ME ONLINE, PRETEND YOU DIDN'T SEE.)

Go to sleep at.... 10.
Finish all homework by... 9.
Not fall asleep in class.
Understand A maths & physics.
Sandpaper my magnesium ribbon properly.
Walk to school faster.
Tahan her scoldings.
Not be late for school.

... not give up.



Hey girls, don't be disheartened. I know I don't have the right to say much, but, you guys have given your best, well done. :)

Mr. Tan, I didn't give you trash :(

@ 9:02 PM


{ } Sunday, January 28, 2007

It's time to thank those who have shown concern through the tagboard :)

This is to Shanti, Jinghan, Jie Rong, SHEEP!, Abby, Boon, Justin, Isaac, Amirul, Kester, Althea, Andrea, Jian, Matthew, Yew Chen ( Amber ), Sophia, Ho Ming, Atiqah, Kenneth, Jasmine, Nicole, Wei Ru, Shahirah, Donna, Virnice, Hui Ming, Wei Rong & Andy ( haha, I really don't know you. Are you Winston's classmate?).

Thanks to all of you. Really appreciate the tags :)

Happy advanced ( 11 minutes early ) birthday to my precious granddaughter, DONNNNNNNNNA GOH!


Starhub threatened to cut off my line if I didn't pay my phone bill :(
ANY SPONSOR? :D

@ 11:36 PM


{ } Thursday, January 25, 2007

Okay people. I need your help!
Anyone who knows suppliers who print jerseys / t-shirts at a reasonable price? Please tell me okay! thanks.

Gosh, I'd love to have the time to be bored.

It's only been three days? zomg.

@ 11:11 PM


{ } Wednesday, January 24, 2007

I need to clear my head, fast.
But time doesn't permit.

All that trash in my head,
and bruises on the ego.

There's probably something better than getting so shitty about all these, cos my life doesn't suck. It has only been 16 years, why would anyone want to give up so soon?

The surface is shallow,
her story is untold.




Wanfong, <3

@ 9:10 PM


{ } Tuesday, January 23, 2007

It's only then that you'd realise how important that person is to you, and just how much you'd sacrifice for him and you start regretting of the things you failed to do. I know there's not much point of telling you all to CHERISH and APPRECIATE, cos now they're merely words and nothing more. Guess you'd have to go through it to know how it tastes like.

And this time, they got me extremely surprised. This goes out to Winston's group of buddies. Mainly, Jian Rui, Kester, Ho Ming, Matthew, Xiao Wei, Jake, Jeffrey, Keith, Isaac and Zhang. I saw the other side of you guys ( the other side of these really noisy people ). Thanks for caring, thanks for understanding, thanks for all those really stupid jokes and comments that cheered me up like crazy yesterday. ( And all the Aunt Annie jokes zzz! ) Ho Ming and Jian, thanks for trying to clear any misunderstanding. Really appreciate it. :)


To some of the 4G'06 girls, thanks so much for offering me hugs and asking if I'm alright though I hardly know you guys.



Jian who eats Mian at the Mian Dian then Da Bian is Sian. :
haha
Jian who eats Mian at the Mian Dian then Da Bian is Sian. :
u better feel loved !
Jian who eats Mian at the Mian Dian then Da Bian is Sian. :
and somewhere in the skies
Jian who eats Mian at the Mian Dian then Da Bian is Sian. :
that bugger loves u the most.
Jian who eats Mian at the Mian Dian then Da Bian is Sian. :
so u hold on k.


Of course, how can I forget this I-can-call-him-anytime-I-want-and-cry-because-his-best-bud-have-entrusted-a-task-to-him guy. JIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. I know it wasn't easy for you either, dude. Thank you for taking care of me, and being there for me 24/7. You've been there since the starting of this, and you still are. Thank you for being my tissue, for giving me a shoulder to cry on, for making sure that I'm okay, and for checking on me just to make sure I'm coping just fine. SuperJian ( Hi world, Jian just made a joke HAHA ) !


And these are the people who have made me feel loved and cared for.

Abby, Nicole, Josephine, Shearen, Wan Fong, Donna, Jasmine, Wei Ru, Wei Rong, David, Boon, Shanti, Justin Khaw, Althea, Kenneth, Jie Rong and the others.
I ough to thank some of them specially but for now, YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU GUYS!

You people make my day, really, with all the constant "Are you okay?". Heartwarming.
Time constrain. Tick tock.
P.S : Love, thanks for the email. :D
P.S.S : Shanti, I love you <3




@ 8:48 PM


{ } Monday, January 22, 2007

And this is for you, Winston.

You're somewhere in the sky, probably watching a movie or catching up on sleep that you lacked of since last night. It's been 14 hours since you've departed and I'm sure you're comfortable on the flight.

I woke up this morning feeling extremely groggy and I forced myself not to think about what would happen when you were about to leave. And then I saw them around you, that twinge of sorrow and longing just.. surged in. I told myself no matter what happen, I couldn't cry. I couldn't bear to see you upset just before you left for States. I tried, but whenever it comes to you, I cannot seem to hold them back. A last hug -- the goodbye hug. Tears, tears and moer tears. Our hearts ached, and mine broke.

I wish I'm able to talk to you and tell you everything in detail, but the truth is, I can't anymore. One week ago, things were different. One week ago, I knew nothing of this sort. I didn't know what was coming at all. Just one week, and everything's gone. So that was the week when I learnt how to treasure and appreciate.

What I promised you, I would do it. I hope the same goes to you okay! Things there will be alright okay and things here will be too. When you get there, let me know that you've reached safely and soundly, and I'd be grateful enough.

I don't know if you've read the book I've given to you, but I hope you'd keep it. Damn, I wish I was the kind of person who can express myself with words but sadly I'm not, so all I can do is just to tell you that I love you.

Thank you for asking them to take care of me, thank you for trying to make this whole goodbye thing as less painful as possible, for understanding, for everything you've done these past 8 months.

I'm going to try to be strong, as what I promised you. I'll be missing you.
Till then, you're still the one.

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My gratitude goes out to a lot of people and these people, I have to specifically thank them so I'll do that tomorrow :)

thank you so much, all.


@ 11:28 PM


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You are more than just a memory.
Ik Hou Van Jou, love.

@ 3:03 AM


{ } Saturday, January 20, 2007

This entry goes out to Shanti.

I'm sorry I was too late today, and I didn't even get to see you off. Take care of yourself. We miss you and we all love you. Thank you for having been a friend and more. Once again, sorry.




@ 10:30 PM


{ } Friday, January 19, 2007

The Bottom Line
If you think that mulling things over is no fun, try enjoying a regrettable act.

In Detail
If you think that thinking things over is not much fun, imagine what fun it will (or won't) be if you make a huge mistake that you regret later. Take all the time you need to get a better understanding of your situation today. You already know enough details to make some educated guesses about what could be coming down the road, but that is just not enough right now. To add some fun to your deliberations, get your favorite people involved. Make it a group project.

Let's analyse this.... nah, don't bother.

When EFFORT doesn't equal to ACHIEVEMENTS.
When TOGETHER doesn't mean FOREVER.
When being ALONE have never felt WORSE.

Emo so what.



Anyway, tonight.
Thanks to the bunch of guys who made hell lots of noise and are currently still playing soccer I suppose.
Thanks to Nicole for coming straight after your tuition in your school U ( HAHA! ),
Thanks to Abby who came after your guides with your voice GONE,
Thanks to Nicholas for coming down after training,
Thanks to Wan Fong for going despite having 'GEL' legs and really aching body,
Thanks to Shearen and David despite everything,
Thanks to Jasmine for forsaking the other party ( thanks a lot for your concern, girl :D ),
And thanks to Justyn, Shanti, Donna, Josephine :)

(Thanks to Jian for organising!)

Of course to you, Winston ♥


To Weirong, I really pei fu you for giving your all this afternoon.
To Wynne, I hope your injury gets better.
To Rui Wen, don't be too hard on yourself, you're great :)

& to all who have showed me concern these past few days, I cannot thank you enough. Thanks for checking on me occasionally to check how I'm doing and things like that. You warm my hearts :D

@ 11:36 PM


{ } Thursday, January 18, 2007

Cigarette Lighter Love Song

I know you're not asleep
I can feel you moving over there
You've been playing with the seam
In your worn out underwear

My lips are raw as hell
From biting on them just to stay awake
It's not like I'm gonna need them
You won't be around
To see them bleed and break

CHORUS:
All...all that I do
Comes back to you
So I'll just think about you til there's nothing new in my head
All...all I can do
Is try not to screw this up again
And just be friends
I'd rather be dead

I drove out of East Atlanta
With a headache the size of my car
I called to say that I was okay
Cuz i know how you are

I'm like a movie without an ending
You know I've got nowhere to go
And it makes me wanna throw up
To see you wanna give up
More than you'll ever know

CHORUS

Everything's supposed to have a happy ending
But the record keeps spinning and the needle keeps bending
Like the road I'm driving to the bridge that has no end
I wanna take back everything that I've broken
But the bridges behind me are burning and smoking
I guess this is the end

CHORUS

@ 11:26 AM


{ } Monday, January 15, 2007



If you still can't figure out why I love her, you're dumb dumbs :)

Abby, thanks for the shoes and sorry for troubling you. Get well really soon and I'll see you back in school tomorrow, bright and early wooooooooooooooooo.


ZOMG. East Zone starts this week I think.
Some shoutouts for my dearest teammates.

Jamie : You're a great player. Have more confidence in yourself just like how we have confidence in you :D
Sun / Moon / Wynne Tay : Go GA :)
Arina : You're a good WA and take care of your injury alright.
Wei Rong : Our beloved centre.
Wan Fong : Of course, our beloved captain who has injurieS.
Wei Rong : Bamboo girl, you're a great defender alongside with Wf ^^
Yvette : REMEMBER THE GOAL! :p

JIA YOU MANZ.


Please show me the guidance.

@ 8:46 PM


{ } Sunday, January 14, 2007

EDITED.
Pictures of Abby's sleepover.


All looking at Daniel play freaky piano.

Mr.I and Mr. L

Amirul & Thong Kiat.

Lenny & Justin K.

I can't remember what we were watching.

Wei Rong.

Amirul blogging.

Final Destination 3.

Lenny K.O-ing.

Before everyone K.O-ed


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Amirul & the long-nose spongebob.

He looks like some kid here o.o

Mr. Tk.

Wootnick still clutching his cap.

Overview of the living room. For all I know, it was freezing cold.

Lenny, pig, snore.

Next morning,

Abby's loyalty to the school.

And again.

Ransacking her cupboard for a change of clothes.

Wei Rong took this to prove the amt of tops Abby has.

The amount of belts..

Books..

And an animal farm!

Wr claims it looks more like a zoo with the plant.

Waiting for Abby to finish bathing.
"What the hell is that note?"
I got stuck.
I was Abby from top to toe.
My hometown! :D
Jasmine got so fascinated over the bowl. o.O


Abby's sleepover.

Final Destination 3, and another movie that I can't rmb, snores, blankets, floor, couch, more snorings, laughter, waking up at 6.30 am, listening to Abby sleeptalk, going to school, with Abby and me going back to dreamland while Wr watches.

Thanks to everyone who made it really good :D




And thanks for all who have shown concern these past few days. I'm alright, really. Thanks to esp, Abby, Shearen, Jo, Jasmine, Wan Fong, Wei Rong, David, Boon, Richny, Jian Rui, Justin K.
And Winston ? Ik Hou Van Jou.

@ 4:48 PM


{ } Saturday, January 13, 2007

Heart - wrenching.

@ 10:37 PM


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HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY, ABYGAIL :D
Currently, we're stoning in Abby's living room now and talking about er, undergarments and bedtime and..... Amirul's freaked out by Abby and he's... WEIRD. Okay, nevermind about that.

Have you ever met a person who can beatbox, play good piano, make cricket sound, make phoe vibrating sound, and make echoes? I have... HI AZRI.


Wei Rong's sleepy.
Justin Khaw's wearing a Deustchland shirt.
Amirul's talking about how gay westlife is, which leads to...
Abby saying her discovery about Wang Lee Hom being gay :(
& Thong Kiat saying it's because of her that he turned gay,
and Lenny... he's nowhere in the living room.




Shearen, I hope you're alright :)


@ 1:02 AM


{ } Thursday, January 11, 2007

If I were to blog about all my tests and remedials and lessons, it'll be considered spamming.


But for everything else, I'd rather cover my ears and run.
Now now, why does this look familiar huh, abby? :p
Thanks for letting me stayover at your house yesternight btw!

@ 7:55 PM


{ } Sunday, January 07, 2007

I hope I'm not too late to say this..

WEIRONG, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET SIXTEEN!
Sixteenth birthday ought to be awesome and special and I hope that's what you felt about it, cos we all felt happy on your birthday celebration too! :D

Wr, thanks for being that bubbly girl we know. Thanks for being such a great classmate, and I still remember the F9 flag ( HAHA! ) and don't worry too much about results, cos you can do it one. You've been a great netball teammate, cos you're always encouraging people and taking responsibility. You've been the one who always cheer me up, regardless in class or during trainings. I'm glad that we're both in the same class, same team and lastly, I'm glad that you're my FRIEND! :D



Weekends are coming to an end in 1 hr and 4 minutes. When the school warn us about hectic schedules, they really mean business.


Gosh, I need to get myself away from the computer and stop being so lazy la omg.
Will blog soon. Got to finish my chem summaries :(

Good night y'all <3

@ 10:43 PM


{ } Friday, January 05, 2007

I typed, and deleted, typed and deleted and repeated that for a whole lot of times.
I just don't know what to say.

They are the most important people in my life.

@ 11:22 PM


{ } Thursday, January 04, 2007

Cos I'm looking at you through the glass....


School's... whoa. The second day of school and almost the whole cohort can feel the stress and pressure already. Well, at least I did and I couldn't go for training cos my head was killing me. I'm still stuck to the com. In my mind, I AM motivated to do well, but.. I'm lazy :(

I don't even know what to feel anymore, so I'll sleep.



.. don't know how much time has passed.

@ 9:44 PM


{ } Wednesday, January 03, 2007

OH NO, I LOST MY CHEMISTRY WORKBOOK.
TKH, pleaaaaaaaaaase don't make me run around the lab or shout at me :(

So first day was just filled with omgitwassoboringuntilipracticallyfrozeonthespot talks. This is just the first day and we already feel the pressure of O's, with all the "it's 10 months away and it will be a really short year".

It doesn't feel like I'm back in school yet though, somehow. I keep having this mindset that today was the ONLY day I had to go back to school, and holiday continues from tomorrow onwards. It'll probably sink after ... how long.

Chairwoman. I don't like :/

OH, i forgot to jot down all my academic resolutions for this year.
1. I'm going to have no life and my first priority is studies.
2. I'm going to go out like probably ... okay i dunno how many times, but as little as possible :)
3. I'm gonna move my com outta the room. It's the biggest distraction so far.
4. I'm gonna go for tuitions faithfully.
5. I'm gonna do homework faithfully too!
6. I'm gonna do weekly revision i guess? o.o
7. I promise to TRY to stay awake in class.
8. I will try to refrain from giving up in a maths lecture.
For now, I shall do my chemistry homework.

@ 9:45 PM


{ } Tuesday, January 02, 2007

School's tomorrow. Everyone is upset cos of that. It's making me upset too!
BUT all's good :)

Happy school day all you out there who needa go school tomorrow ( unlike some slackers who's gonna be slacking at home for the next three months :p )

@ 11:02 PM


{ } Monday, January 01, 2007

i miss my mom :(
after all, it doesnt feel good to be alone at home every single day.

@ 11:34 PM


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Abby and me in the middle of lol i dont know what road it was actually, somewhere near the memorial ( the thing that looks like chopstick ). Gosh had lots of fun with the both of them ( Abby and Price ), the running, the walking, the jokes, the picking-up-heels-and-run, the running after the taxi.


Haha price you were sleeping like a log this morning when I left. Still want to go SWIMMING? o.o

This has been one of the best new year eve / new year day. Since I don't really celebrate it anyway. Last year's was spent at home where my bro, my mum and me watched tv and ate fish porridge.


Is it too late to put up New Year Resolutions? Actually I haven't thought of it heh. But this year, studies come first. No play play. Miko, you better stop sleeping in class, Abby you too! If not Kai Liang will rub medicated oil on your hand again. Jie rong, please try to keep me awake alright!

BEFORE I GET MY ASS OFF THE CHAIR AND GET THE LAUNDRY DONE, I'll post up the pictures of netball farewell! It was a success thanks to Wei Rong who organized this whole thing and sorry for the overexceeding of smses hehe.





Rui Wen, Me, Wf, Shan, Arina, Jamie & Wr.








Wf dropped her camera into the thingy.



Shanti. We'll miss you :(



Today was spent blading with Nicole to check out her primary school bbq pit all the way at the lake there, and lol after so long of no blading, of course, I was worse than usual, so I fell like this.

and so ( according to Nicole ), the fall was like the typical fall they show in cartoons, and that my expression when I was suspended in the air for 0.5 second was, funneh. she didn't exactly come to my aid, she just stood there trying hard not to laugh. BUT it's kay, after all, I haven't seen her for so long and oooh we're back to our normal routine in a day's time.

Then it was over to my house. She had to do last minute stuff for her bbq so it was quite luan, and I ended up teaching her how to play Danny Boy on the piano, then Wf came over to do homework. Nicole left for her bbq soon after and then I couldn't take it. Three hours of sleep for two days straight was a nono, so I told Wf I would be back in half an hour's time and I collapsed on my bed. I swear it didn't feel like half an hour at all and then Wf came over to the bedroom and started poking me. Homework is a killer ( especially chem ).

Headed over to Parkway with Fong and then we just walked around, laughing at the stupidest thing.

Wf : I like this brown file, but it's so brown.


@ 10:10 PM



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