{ ♥ } Monday, January 22, 2007
And this is for you, Winston.
You're somewhere in the sky, probably watching a movie or catching up on sleep that you lacked of since last night. It's been 14 hours since you've departed and I'm sure you're comfortable on the flight.
I woke up this morning feeling extremely groggy and I forced myself not to think about what would happen when you were about to leave. And then I saw them around you, that twinge of sorrow and longing just.. surged in. I told myself no matter what happen, I couldn't cry. I couldn't bear to see you upset just before you left for States. I tried, but whenever it comes to you, I cannot seem to hold them back. A last hug -- the goodbye hug. Tears, tears and moer tears. Our hearts ached, and mine broke.
I wish I'm able to talk to you and tell you everything in detail, but the truth is, I can't anymore. One week ago, things were different. One week ago, I knew nothing of this sort. I didn't know what was coming at all. Just one week, and everything's gone. So that was the week when I learnt how to treasure and appreciate.
What I promised you, I would do it. I hope the same goes to you okay! Things there will be alright okay and things here will be too. When you get there, let me know that you've reached safely and soundly, and I'd be grateful enough.
I don't know if you've read the book I've given to you, but I hope you'd keep it. Damn, I wish I was the kind of person who can express myself with words but sadly I'm not, so all I can do is just to tell you that I love you.
Thank you for asking them to take care of me, thank you for trying to make this whole goodbye thing as less painful as possible, for understanding, for everything you've done these past 8 months.
I'm going to try to be strong, as what I promised you. I'll be missing you.
Till then, you're still the one.
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My gratitude goes out to a lot of people and these people, I have to specifically thank them so I'll do that tomorrow :)
thank you so much, all.
